Friday, April 10, 2009

It is Good Friday

It is Good Friday. So much to consider. Everything from the cross and all its meaning – old, new & yet discovered – to the students and peers I will say good-bye to next week. Where am I going? Today, I will venture to Tacoma to see my son – for whom I have suffered much and whose suffering brought me to new life. Where on the cross does that fit? I think of papers to grade – a trip to take – my daughter rumbling around in the kitchen – my husband who I enjoyed so much yesterday.

Why? Why all of these things? I feel the pressure to write of Good Friday. (“All the “holy” people are doing it”, says the b.s. in my head. “Move into silence like the other “good” ones.”) Oh my, the inner voices ring loud and I wonder how will I be generous with myself.

How do I get to be me? How do I follow my own voice – be who I am created to be? Who is God? What is God? How can we even define? Yet so many attempt. Attempting truth. Is truth not what we experience? Could truth be being present to our own experiences of each other – of the world – of ourselves?

“Easter and Passover make us experience in ourselves a call out of bondage. So experiencing them doesn’t destroy our religious traditions.” Joseph Campbell

How will I experience Good Friday – like me – like myself? I am aware it is the day of the cross. Do I need to run away from life today – hole up in my sanctuary and pray for hours? Perhaps – if that is what I am called to do from the deep core of my being. I think not. Instead I will go to see my son. How appropriate this mother and son should be together on this day. I will go for a walk with a new friend – breathing fresh air – building new relationship. “We are nailed together by the cross.” a paraphrase from Jan Richardson’s must read post.

Life afresh and new. Letting the old die. “Whatever comes from a moment’s grace that joins us to our lives and to each other – this is spiritual.” Mark Nepo I would go on to say it is Holy - these things that join us to our lives. The candle that burns on my desk. Music drifting through the room. Clouds that cover the sun. Friends who await my call. God who speaks my name.

It is Good Friday. There is much to be considered.

photo of my son circa 1993

9 comments:

Danny said...

This is a great post Lucy... I hear so many of my own struggles and questions here... especially now I am a minister and I 'do' Holy Week for a living! And this week as I have drifted through the services organised by our ecumenical churches together group (I am Friday) I have struggled to follow my voice and my path through this week. But you have made me think about it in terms of the new relationships forged during this week... I'll remember that as I light the candle tonight in the sanctuary.

tinkerbell the bipolar faery said...

From the cross, where he is nailed, Jesus nails us to each other.

I have felt this in my heart. What a brilliant way of putting it. Certain very intense and personal struggles have smacked me awake over the past year, made me more open and receptive to receiving existence, rather than forging it. That's truth, isn't it? Being?

lucy said...

thank you so much, danny. your words have touched me deeply and i am delighted to know that a little piece of me will be in scotland tonight as the candle is lit.

lucy said...

oh, yes, tinkerbell---being is indeed truth...how could it be otherwise?

SUNRISE SISTER said...

Mark Nepo's quote is so blessed to me - "whatever comes...."

Good Friday - symbol, remembrance such a huge gathering of emotion and meaning.....

We're off to Dayton in a few minutes for GF with them at Grace Church.

xoxo

Anonymous said...

Lucy!! Great Post. I too loved the 'nailed together by the cross' quote. I too thought about our mother-son experience and how that cross that we all bore nailed us together with other moms and sons and from there to an ever expanding Soltura family. Hugs to you and please hugs to your son. Love, Pamela

Tabitha in Bliss said...

What a beautiful and thought provoking post!

Abbey of the Arts said...

lucy, you are always great at expressing those inner voices and they sound so darn familiar.

I hope your day was everything you needed it to be and more.

xoxoxo C

thymekeeper said...

It is now Easter Eve ~ and I trust that this trinity of holy days has been/will be just what you need, deep in your soul. Blessings on new life wherever that takes you!